I've deleted everyone I'm going to delete. There are people who I've deleted who I intend to keep on Facebook, I just would rather not have you on LJ. Speak now or forever hold your peace.

I couldn't sleep last night, too depressed. I managed to sleep for a bit but I had weird dreams. Now I feel like a zombie and I have to leave for work in 25 minutes.

In one dream there was this plane crash and this woman came out of the plane with a little girl, a little over a year old, who clearly wasn't hers (she was Indian and the girl was pale with blonde hair) and so I took her from her because she was still dazed but then we found that the mother had died in the crash so I was looking after this little girl, cuddling her lots because she had gone through a traumatic experience. In the end she was taken to be with her next of kin and it was really sad. She was so beautiful and soft and delicate and I loved her. The family called on me to help because they couldn't change her/put her in her sleepsuit because she didn't know them and they didn't know what to do so I went back to her and they could see how we'd bonded. I still had to go after though. It was really sad.

There was another dream where we were watching a video of me in a gameshow from when I was 17 (not real, still dreamland =P) and I was so fat it was horrible. Even though I wasn't fat at 17. The whole thing was humiliating because I'd said stupid things because I was young and immature but also because of how I looked. Ergh.

I'm really puffy at the moment, not sure why. My back's very puffy and my legs felt like they'd doubled in size last night. Some of it's gone down today. I just don't get why it happens. So depressing.

I have to go and get ready. Stupid work. Working 1-5 and 8-12, am really sick of split shifts and working on the weekend.

I was really paranoid when I went into work yesterday that everyone would laugh at me for 'going blonde' and that I'd have to deal with loads of comments. Seems that's just paranoia on my part because nobody said a thing. It just goes to show how stuff gets exaggerated in my head. I told Chris I thought my hair was yellow and a really bad dye-job and he said it was not really that noticable - it just looked like I was naturally that fair. Thanks for the headfuck, brain.

OK, really have to go *grumble*

I decided that I wanted to do another one of these =D

Tell me what you think of me
Do it anonymously
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